Not weird just uniquely different =)

2011-02-10T21:36:00.002+08:00

Im seriously amazed how I could walk by so many people
and never really know them,
for example I know this dude from a friend
talked to him a few times but we walked pass each other for almost two months in uni
before we actually found out who we were.
ironic wouldnt cha say...

words cannot express how freakin happy I been lately,
sometimes I wonder if im really good enough for this,
the ghost from the past still haunts me,
wounds that have healed leave huge scares that still hold me back.
there is this huge bump that I have to pass...

sometimes all you need is more than words and empty promises,
sometimes I feel like im dreaming and I need a pinch to wake up.

I alway told myself trust no one,
and I was right...

but what if this time Im wrong?

2011-02-06T22:43:00.005+08:00

the randomness fun day with B ♥

I cant believe how good this year has been been to so many new places which

I ALWAYS WANTED TO GO!!

the people I call friends are truly angels! =)

erm... I had an accident with the brush....

so..

Anyways........

I miss staying on my own...

after moving out of PJ

i barely get to meet up with me peeps!

*I miss you guys!*

I had loads of fun staying at the 3rd floor ;)

I see you

*easy for spying no? *

But Hotmama decided to move 2 kl..

hence Ill be living in Puchong.

It aint so bad,

the only thing is having everyone suddenly wanting to know wtf Im doing.

=.="

FML.

2011-01-11T19:47:00.002+08:00

you cant be against me..

but that wont bring me down..

the 1st time I heard this song it didn't make sense..

but now it kinda does ;)

2011-01-09T23:37:00.004+08:00

I'm mended...

not by someone,but by a bunch of people that helped me

I Feel like I was sleeping for the whole 2010year and I'm awake again.

so u better watch out (RAWWRR)

The best new years

Thank you for accepting me for who I am.

flaws and all ♥

2011-01-07T23:25:00.000+08:00

There are short moments where I just let my thoughts wonder....

Maybe its wrong, but I cant help wonder...

sometimes when I type that URL... I hope to see it gone..

But there are times where I'm scared to find it missing...

But one things for sure,

Im not looking back wishing things were different...

for I know I deserve better

xoxo

the best you'll never have.

2010-12-31T16:11:00.011+08:00

Baisez vous 2010!!!-au revoir tous les temps de merde

Hellooooooooooooooooo 2011!

**************************

Despite all The Shit This year had alot of good memories as well...

And alot of new people in my life

which Im so grate-full for each and everyone of you.

♥

***************

2010-12-28T19:41:00.005+08:00

One year is almost over,

this has been one though year,

alot of downs more than up's..

but I hope it can end with a bang!

I learned alot this year,

grown alot,

Faced alot of problems with myself and manage to overcome them,

This year was hard dealing with alot of personal relationship problems,

Im glad this year is coming to an end,

cause I can face next year with a new start..

someone hurt me alot this year mentally and physically

and I hope that one day you realize your faults and better yourself

cause I pray you never treat anyone alse like how you treated me,

you left a scar for life, and Im glad Im pass that,

I can finally move on now...

cause i know not everyones the same...

I learned nothing is permanent

everything is just temporary

just live in the moment

but that does not give you an excuse to be stupid

cause you will someday have to deal with the consequences of your own actions...

People like to judge you but the people around you

But I think if you know yourself well enough

and hold strong to your own principles

no one can mold you except you, yourself..

This year I made alot of new friends that I know

are Friends for life...

You guys who were always there and stuck by me,

THANK U

I know I could not go through this year without each of you.

My family is going thru so much

we are having a BIG MOVE.

so I hope Im not causing anymore strains on them

I <3>

cause now all the skeletons are cleared we can start the new year

with a new leaf! =)

This year i turned 20!

I had my 1st flaming! And a bunch of other shots

I cant remember the name.

I tried alot of new stuff ..

Had a few sohai moments,

~~kissed 4guys ?~~ jk

learned not to hold myself back so much

living with sheena helped me so much in so many ways

Im just glad I could survive 2010. =)

2010-12-25T23:13:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas..

This year didn't seem much like Christmas..

Was not even in the Christmas spirit!!

I kept missing home..

I know I should accept change but...

Its easier said than done..

I should have not answer some calls that made my decision to stay in KL

not an easy one...

2010-12-21T11:47:00.002+08:00

I moved out of PJ on the 16December 2010!

It was the hardest thing I had to do..

thank god I had amazing friends and family that helped me...

like sheena,siraj, melisa and aaron..

currently living with sheena till I get me own place..

Im so dam broke this month!!

completely forgot what its like living with someone..

PJLA please give me a job in Jan, I really need cash..

=.=

My Bday is tomorrow, Christmas is just a couple days away,

im not even in the mood for anything..

I miss penang..

*anyone wiling to pay my maxis bill for me? as a bday or Christmas gift?*

2010-12-09T01:06:00.002+08:00

Currently addicted to this version thanks to Hijau....

was listening to grenade, what if,and smile

now im dead addicted to this part2 and just the way you are....

new fav word..SO-hai

never knew talking about pontianak and toyols could freak the shit out of me...

LMAO...

Discovering alot of new things..

2010-12-08T16:19:00.004+08:00

So many things play throu my head…

I found my feet back on the ground..

Not easy getting here.. but I did it..

No more feeling shitty about myself

Wondering what my mistake was,

Wondering what if…

Im at a place I feel happy

Despite people around me getting the wrong idea

Despite the people around not trusting me

But that’s history,

I cant wait for 2010 to end…

Next year one clean slate..

Same same but different..

Im with people who care,

Im with people that show me that there is more to life

people should stop judging people by their cover...

every book tells a different story,

only difference is your the author of your own book..

how the ending might be is up to you,

how different people like reading the book or not

is up to them..

as long as your happy with how your book is turning out

thats all that really matter's..

when life gives you lemons ask for tequila and salt ;p

I'm back new and improved...

Doing the things I never could cause you hold me down...

to-No.3 You cant mess with my mind no more...

I'm not letting you have the best of me..

no more mindf**king me.

your nice but you have no respect for people

even the respect you show is just temporary..

I did some modeling for my friends awesome experience

and It was fun!

**lil too much make up in one but totally worth it hopefully i can keep the dress**

xoxo

2010-11-11T19:50:00.003+08:00

I saw this line in Starbucks telawi street..

friends are like snowflakes,

all different all beautiful

to all my babes and dudes that are always got my back,

THANK YOU.

Each of you are crazy and insane

In that way, some how you guys always manage to keeps me sane

sometimes a lil crazy-ness is the best medicine..

like riding in a kelisa's car booth around Bukit Jalir..

some how you guys always manage to make me smile

even when I feel shitty inside.

♥ Thank you! ♥

2010-11-09T19:21:00.005+08:00

the things you say makes me wonder...

Currently addicted to Bruno mars- grenade

Nelly-over and over

Life is short,

I could die tomorrow, You could die tomorrow ,

love like you never loved before,

fight for things only worth fighting,

take a step back and breath,

notice the little things that make life so amazing,

Never take something for granted once its gone,

thats when you'll miss it the most.

weheartit

2010-11-06T16:23:00.009+08:00

Road trip part 2.

we went to Batu Caves

It was my 1st time the caves were pretty cool..

then

I'm not sure where we went all I know is it

was after Gentings..

we went to a elephant farm?

something like that then we hit some waterfall nearby

then back to KL for awesome seafood!!!

But I'm sure each of us is scared for life

due to the lack of changing facilities...

on days like this I thank god I'm from an

all girl school.. ;)

muka kena samun..

**cause he did the night be4 the trip**

**we lurve each other =p **

we gotta ride the elephant,

And No the elephant didn't ride us.

gay people

we are all a lil retarded..

tis is my boss so I say no comment( i want my pay)

the sweeties

awesome photographer awesome shots! ;)

♥ you guys are the best people I ever met and are my family in KL

♥ you guys!! we may fight because of assignments and get mad at silly things

but we are always there for each other =)

2010-11-06T14:23:00.010+08:00

PJLA had a few road trips with the cast so we tagged along..

DAY1-Melaka..

I love Melaka!!

me and kit were trying to escape tis pic but the photographer is very persistent.

I some how think he blends with the background.. haha

Im trying to aim for his arse.

ham sup taitanic

crazy people on the lose..

crazy women on the run

crazy women trying to bite my arse!

Hustler trying his luck with flora's mom..

like mother like daughter..

kit might be checking some1 out and hustler jz looks soo wrong!

the guy in the cape..

my boss..

and I aint kidding when I say he walked around 1U like that.

chilling be4 work starts..

2010-11-05T23:09:00.003+08:00

Said all I need to say.

Im not talking anymore,

Nanny told me the best friends listen

and only give advice when asked.

She also said to smile more at random people,

u don't lose anything, if u smile you gain a smile,

I cant wish on a shooting star no more,

Im gonna stop being so dependent,

no more calling just to talk,

facing my skeletons in my closet,

I don't know why Bad things happen

especially to really sweet and awesome people

like nanny and my friend,

they are the sweetest people on planet earth,

I pray that all their pain/hurt/troubles go away,

cause I know they don't deserve this,

what can cause dumb humans to hurt these people

who are so amazing,

sometimes I wish I could do something to make things better..

I hope all goes well..

life's a bitch..

2010-11-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

I'm wild cause I dare to be different!

So deal with it…

Looking into the mirror and fixing it..

Doing what I need to do.

When something aint rite and everything is messed up

Idk how to react I say stuff that I don’t mean

Im an emotional rack when things are not stable.

No3. You aint everything anymore..

I overreacted.

Cause I was hurt, nothing with u in it is easy..

Everything with u is so complicated

but somehow everything is rite..

somehow I still feel like Im fighting for respect,

all you care about is who's opinion is on what..

No1. Its obvious..

we are losing you again....

I know it should not matter,

but somehow I wonder what are you thinking?

why am I so annoyed to hear about b_______a..?

~yesterday~

Best day in kl!!

I spend the afternoon driving around settling bills

in the hot hot sun with no air-cond.

After sending my sister-in-law home

AM,Min and me hit the pool!

after a very seriously fcking hot day

the ice cold pool was heaven!!

Thai food

randomly driving

city view

laying down by the lake

just talking

and looking at the cacat clouds

Mac'D ice-cream!

the awesome company

best chill out day =)

*Downside our car was raided by cops who were annoying and kept asking us if we celebrated Deepavali and saying that me and AM would make pretty babies*

one word

wtf

**little tip people**

Dare's aren't suppose to mind fuck u.

sighs..

2010-11-04T23:00:00.004+08:00

A very delayed post I still have not alot of pictures yet..

anyways

My brother's wedding ♥

family picture

my dad's side

cant find a pic of my m0m's side

the dinner my date and my cousins =)

their 1st dance

mel, hotmama and me ♥

2010-11-01T01:27:00.008+08:00

My thoughts are all over the place for a while..

thats why I haven't been blogging...

but a little sneak peak on whats been in my mind...

This sem is so different

I gain and lost so much,

everything is changing so fast,

life is really a roller costar ride,

I worked during sem break at PJLA,

It was fun I gotta meet with different people and find myself again,

Somehow it made me realize the good and bad in the people around me,

And I gotta work on my problems.

even though I wanted to shout sometimes that

I love my ATTITUDE PROBLEM!

****

I hate the feeling knowing that something is hanging between u and ur close friend.

I hate knowing their mad at you or have something on their mind but not wanting to spill.

Hate wanting to just hug them and making everything go away.

****

somedays I feel so messed up

somedays I dont feel like getting out of bed,

Somedays I feel like jumping for joy,

Somedays Im all smiles,

Somedays I just wanna scream,

Somedays I wish i was emotion-less

Somedays I wana try new things,

somedays I want wads familiar,

*********

This is for U,

Honestly without you around this year,

I dont think I could manage degree,

You helped me though everything,

from break up's to mess up's

you were always there,

you somehow made things feel better,

like in a moment I forget everything,

and not everyone can do that to me,

we always got each other's back,

no matter what happens,

I want you to know,

Im so great-full that your in my life,

And I want you to be there till the end

Your an amazing person and Im blessed to have you in my life.

Even though I doubt Ill be seeing you around by the end of this month..

thank you for happy days..

********

You no2.

I know you love me but can you stop making me regret every call I make to you!!

seriously your DRAMA-queen-nest is annoying me.

********

You no.3

I hate u, for making everything so hard.

I know whats right but you make whats right so wrong.

I hope your happy.

**************

Every year since I was 13 I got one new piercing,

13years old-2nd hole*ear

14-years old-top ear

15-self pierce 3rd hole

16-belly piercing

17-another 3rd hole*took it out**

18-nose piercing **took it out**

19-lip piercing ** took it out**

20- eye brow ** currently**

And this is the final peircing i hope.

Next year TATTOo.

I actualize the things I wanna do,

next botaking ...

2010-09-16T22:26:00.004+08:00

I ♥ Megan!

we have similar taste ;p

-need a cam-

-need to find a new crib!-

-need to start being more independent-

-need to start working-

-need to start painting again-

-need my BB to be fixed asap!-

-need to go shopping-

-needs a holiday! badly..

~~- ~~dating again?~~~~

-learn to play my bass!-

-need to work on myself-

-need to go botak-

-need to pierce again-

-NEEDS TO FIND OUT WHAT IMMA WEAR FOR MY

BROTHER'S WEDDING-

happening NEXT WEEK! and I cant help with anything cause I have exams.

And I might be dateless? =(

papers still going on and all I want to do is PAINT!

so badly!

so many distraction.. sigh...

This week everyone is being strong and staking a stand...

Its time I should too,

watching them gives me strength,

Thank you, you for being there ;)

I found out something about myself,

according to people, IM a FLIRT,

But people close to me know that Im like that 24/7

According to JonJon IM a Guy,

seriously, I have no clue

fml.

2010-09-10T19:34:00.002+08:00

hate the person I have become,

Losing control..

I need to get a grip.

**smack self**

2010-09-09T15:59:00.009+08:00

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that’s alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that’s alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

I can’t tell you what it really is

I can only tell you what it feels like

And right now there’s a steel knife

In my windpipe

I can’t breathe

But I still fight

While I can fight

As long as the wrong feels right

It’s like I’m in flight

High of a love

Drunk from the hate

It’s like I’m huffing paint

And I love it the more that I suffer

I suffocate

And right before im about to drown

She resuscitates me

She fucking hates me

And I love it

Wait

Where you going

I’m leaving you

No you ain’t

Come back

We’re running right back

Here we go again

It’s so insane

Cause when it’s going good

It’s going great

I’m Superman

With the wind in his bag

She’s Lois Lane

But when it’s bad

It’s awful

I feel so ashamed

I snap

Who’s that dude

I don’t even know his name

I laid hands on her

I’ll never stoop so low again

I guess I don’t know my own strength

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that’s alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that’s alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much

You can barely breathe

When you’re with them

You meet

And neither one of you

Even know what hit ‘em

Got that warm fuzzy feeling

Yeah them chills

Used to get ‘em

Now you’re getting fucking sick

Of looking at ‘em

You swore you’ve never hit ‘em

Never do nothing to hurt ‘em

Now you’re in each other’s face

Spewing venom

And these words

When you spit ‘em

You push

Pull each other’s hair

Scratch, claw, bit ‘em

Throw ‘em down

Pin ‘em

So lost in the moments

When you’re in ‘em

It’s the rage that took over

It controls you both

So they say it’s best

To go your separate ways

Guess that they don’t know ya

Cause today

That was yesterday

Yesterday is over

It’s a different day

Sound like broken records

Playin’ over

But you promised her

Next time you’ll show restraint

You don’t get another chance

Life is no Nintendo game

But you lied again

Now you get to watch her leave

Out the window

Guess that’s why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that’s alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that’s alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things

Did things

That we didn’t mean

And we fall back

Into the same patterns

Same routine

But your temper’s just as bad

As mine is

You’re the same as me

But when it comes to love

You’re just as blinded

Baby please come back

It wasn’t you

Baby it was me

Maybe our relationship

Isn’t as crazy as it seems

Maybe that’s what happens

When a tornado meets a volcano

All I know is

I love you too much

To walk away though

Come inside

Pick up your bags off the sidewalk

Don’t you hear sincerity

In my voice when I talk

Told you this is my fault

Look me in the eyeball

Next time I’m pissed

I’ll aim my fist

At the dry wall

Next time

There will be no next time

I apologize

Even though I know it’s lies

I’m tired of the games

I just want her back

I know I’m a liar

If she ever tries to fucking leave again

I’ma tie her to the bed

And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that’s alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that’s alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

2010-09-09T15:44:00.004+08:00

This is for you..

I just need everyone to stop telling me what to do,

I know what I need to do,

Just leave me alone..

2010-09-09T15:20:00.002+08:00

I fucked up so much this past weeks..

I dono wtf Im doing..

when I finally realize it might be too late..

Doing shit I normally wouldn't do,

I feel the guilt,

I hate the feeling,

LOST..

everything just doesn't seem right,

Losing my mind...

It took losing a friend to realize how short and precious life is,

That every word you say might be your last,

Every mistake you make cant be undone,

Every plans made unfulfilled,

life is like a ripple,

one drop can change everything,

We changed plans, I did it so I could see him,

Support him,but it ended up with a life lost,

Yea its not my fault but I cant help wonder what IF..

Random stuff keeps playing in my head,

stupid fights,

you may think Im too young,

but I know whats right,

I know how its suppose to feel,

My biggest regrets,

I cant change time,

I can only hope....

hope times picks me...

If only you could make someone do something,

but you cant,

everyone around going to the same thing,

everyone uses someone to forget someonealse

but im not gonna do that...

time is the best healer...

Thank you for being there and being understanding....

Reality just hit me HARD.

2010-08-28T11:59:00.004+08:00

idk anymore.

its all over, for real,

no turning back..

no more chasing fairies that are not there,

so many thing happen in this month alone,

I dont know whats real anymore,

broken promises,

renewed flames,

testing waters,

Im just so sick of it all,

:just gonna stand there and watch me burn.

I gotta move on I cant stand around waiting,

I cant hope on something that will never happen,

I did things this month Im not proud of,

but I can only learn from my mistakes,

only exception keeps playing in my head once in a while,

It maybe nothing or maybe something,

but its just messing me up even more,

Im lucky to have all my Friends who care about me,

Langkawi trip really helped,

Those crazy nights were the best,

thank god 4 jon on the 1st night the only sane one,

it really was an awesome trip,

just being total beach bums..

it open my eyes.

now I know what I have to do.

Right now this very moment typing two years back we started,

now its ended im leaving it all in the past,

I learned that even if relationships dont really last or work out,

friendships should not be gone to waste,

once a friend a friend for life.

2010-08-19T22:28:00.006+08:00

my cousin wedding in ENO penang..

awsome wedding and gota do some family catching up!

Varian and Tasha

awsome part about this trip to Penang the hotel is just opposite all the clubs in UPR.

so we club-ed and everyone could drink!

2010-08-10T16:48:00.007+08:00

unfiltered

in the making ♥

2010-08-08T10:45:00.006+08:00

RED TEAM vs BLUE TEAM

PAINT BALL

my team

jon got the worse shots i think

yasmin the "killer" she shot me in the head round1

the guys

we were job-less

red team

blue team

CANT WAIT FOR THE REMATCH!

AWSOME-NESS

so sad the Jordan n Josh wont be around for it,

had fun chiiling with them even got to check out the aquar thing in KLCC

and on that day we had Banana leaf

Me being a Cults spilled rasum on joardan..

it was an accident, but he looked like he pissed his pants

oopss

I went back to Penang for Varian's wedding it was fun spending time with the

family, some clubbing

the awesome-ness is being able to crash right next to all the club no need to worries about parking or driving home!

And i got to see my baby!!

sadly i didnt get to hit the beach... haiz

2010-07-14T03:06:00.006+08:00

i wana do something with my hair it currently looks like this..

i did so many things with my hair in this past 2years!

i dont know what to do.

should i go botak then? ;)

i cant sleep. so why not be vain.

**********

braided

original hair = curly

shoulder length

dyed and straight

dyed straight / curl

straight/ curl

short!

stright

short and semi straight

straight with fringe

curls

2010-07-13T02:34:00.006+08:00

via we <3>

I feel like a different person,

I wanna live life like everyday is my last ,

Im learning to experiment with different things,

Im trying food I use to hate,

I feel strong independent,

new loves

Dark coffee and torn jeans

***

*ME ♥ *

picture to hot to put up ;)

2010-07-05T21:09:00.003+08:00

if i could turn back time,

i would go back to this time,

sometimes reassurance is the best thing there is,

sometimes the simplest words is all you need to hear,

i love you more everyday ♥

Im sorry for being silly ;p

currently being a nut thanks to Advertising.

to me peeps who is the emo-ing with me today,

everything will be ok.

this song goes out to ya

halo/sunshine-glee

2010-07-01T21:26:00.003+08:00

R.I.P

Fluffy baby

when ever I hold one paw she would put the other on my hand.

some people would say its just a dog, get a new one.

But seriously can u find any dog that looks like this?

In this size?

with all that fur?

with teeth that needs braces?

No.

you can never replace this dog.

She was there when I didn't have anyone to turn to,

she was still there when I was hurt and could not tell anyone,

she sat next to me when I cried my heart out,

she was my pillow, a very fluffy one

I had her for 10years, Lady my other dog gave birth to her during merdeka.

Me and my cousin Sheena was there to witness it.

until today dogs giving birth is disturbing to me.

eww

anyways fluffy was the last pup to be born,

I kept her cause I accidentally threw the gate open and it hit her.

I felt so bad for that, so i kept her.

when she was younger she use to bite my brothers bike paddles,

(hence the teeth)

so my Bro hated her.

But i loved her,so did most of my friends that visited.

despite having a face that people would be afraid and run away from,

(her eye became blind when she was 5years old)

she was an angel, she never bit anyone and welcomed anyone who patted her.

She is the best dog i ever had,

even if most my family never really liked her like how i did

I loved her.

bu-bye fluffy pillow for me to hug and cry to.

I feel so bad not playing with her the last time i went down.

I was so busy trying to chill with everyone ales.

I know there aint no doggie heaven but I love you babie.

below pic her mom and her when she was a pup

the above is the latest pic of them

I know its dumb but I wish she was still at home.

2010-07-01T17:35:00.010+08:00

*opss slight glitch! scroll from the bottom to the top*

I got braided! <3

radio BC tutorials are fun ;p

now I know what ill look like botak,

which i will be in December

**hopes**

Flim fest

right after coming back from Singapore

more pic soon

Singapore

*we didn't really take much pic**

ombak stunt guys

I wana grow up i wana be a star, wana be in movies.

I just realize i could do this!

Times square

I <3>

if only it be like this all the time!

aaron got peirced

even though I May only know my Uni friends less than a year

I feel like I known them forever!

they are like family

♥

2010-06-08T20:53:00.007+08:00

Be with someone who is your best friend,

someone you trust,

someone you can be yourself,

It takes two to fall in love and two to make it complicated,

people are set in their ways but people also change,

sometimes you gotta listen to both sides,

sometimes we say things we dont mean,

sometimes we need a listening ear not a judging one,

As a passerby , some situations look silly,

sometimes you would feel like slapping a person just to wake them up,

but our thoughts are irrelevant if your not in that situation,

sometimes we dont think we just feel,

we can never actually walk in each others shoes,

But we could do our best to be understanding,

forget the risk take the fall,

if its what you want, its worth it all.....

Coming soon..

I got family coming down from left,right and center,

weddings to attend and help out with

and LOADS OF ASSIGNMENTS to do ..

which scare the shit out of me.

but Im taking everything a step at a time,

I feel super inspired so imma start painting again,

Currently everything is awesome

well except im down with a cold!!

but the upside is I got breakfast in bed.

*thanks love for being there for me*

IM in love..

with...

Ian Joseph Somerhalder

Im in love with him..

HOT HOT HOT!

**drooooolls**

I have fallen for him even since LOST.

And thanks to Vampire Dairies im in love with him once again.

And I love the character he plays,

what can I say I love bad boys ;)

I still haven't decided to chop it all off or do this..

Manage me.Im a mess

2010-05-25T02:22:00.003+08:00

I know what I have to do,
I know the pain will kill,
I know the tears will spill,
I know how bitter the experience will be,
I know how much hurt ill face,
I know how bad this might get,
But this is it.

No more fighting myself ,
No more fixing it,
No more making exceptions,
I cant go hurting myself,
I see it eating me up,
I'm not this person,

the one who sits and waits
the one who hopes for something that might never happen,
I seen it too often to be that person,

I cant believe it can be this way,
spiteful and hate-full tones,
annoyed and irritated ,
like nothing is functioning,
like there is a huge piece missing,
like the happiness only last a minute,

I'm not hoping to be happy all the time,
All im looking for is respect,
All im looking for is concern,
All im looking for is understanding,
All im looking for is politeness,
All im looking for is to be treated like a human,
Like a person you like,
Maybe if its even possible the person u love.

I cant have anymore conversations with your pictures,
hoping that you might hear me,
your dead, and I have to accept that now.

2010-05-24T16:03:00.017+08:00

I miss Eugenia, Yi Ling , Natalie, Simon, Jon, and Aaron

Penang trip was awesome cause of you people =)

Day2

otw to the Island

on the feri

At the jeti to keracut

The Boat Ride

our driver I love all the beach shoots.
I took this shot at keracut under the bridge with Nat's camidk who took the other shots.

Eugena jumping like hyper child^^

Nat =)

Jon being a monkey for eugena

where alse can we climb trees =)

me and the babi

The lake/river
everyone looks like they are waiting to go back.

I took this shot too =)
me likie this pic of Nat
camwhore at the beach =p
balik
At the apartment pool
groupie picture
of all of us.
Lucky i left be four they started this but
I still manage to push someone in the pool! =p
Day3

kek lok xi
beadzone

gurney drive

Nat punya hasil kerja

the devils

more cool pictures on Facebook.

2010-05-23T01:20:00.005+08:00

Its the middle of SEM Break already.
I had a blast!
A bunch of my uni friends came down to Penang.

DAY1
Wednesday night.......
They arrived at Juru my mom and I picked them up,
After resting we headed to *SENTOSA* for food
then to AC which we found a huge ass screen playing
disaster movie so we just sat and watch the show there,

Day2
Thursday....
-we got a boat ride to Keracut-
It was all our 1st time going,
the day was HOT, the sand was HOT!

EVERYTHING BURN-ED!

we manage to find a lake and river to cool off,
and the water was heaven! ice cold!

-then we headed back to our apartment
Then to the beach again for banana boat/para-sailing
-instead of sand in our pants we jumped into the apartment pool,
-at night we headed to Batu Fringgie stalls for food/shopping..
man did my legs hurt!!!
no one wanted to go Sunset bistro so we headed back to the apartment,
-drank some, i never-ed some.

Day3
Friday....
We went to kek lok xi
Me and Aaron didn't enter we could not for some reason..
so went jalan jalan instead

After that we headed to Gurney to makan/chill.
took them to BEADZONE ♥
we visited Janice a while then headed home
for more I never /drinking session

I definitely know everyone a whole lot better now..
♥♥♥
WHAT HAPPEN'S IN PENANG STAYS IN PENANG ;)

pictures in the next post*

2010-05-18T19:03:00.003+08:00

MY Blog had a Make over by Miss Ruth♥
IDK wad I would do without her!

-I OWE YA!-
It still is under alot of construction,

Hence all the empty secions.

I lost all my Links , so those of you that are not link
please send me your link via chatbox
so i can link ya up once again!

-Thank you-

I cant wait for tomorow! The gang is coming down.

Time to partty =)

2010-05-16T23:39:00.004+08:00

These are late!

Im sorry PENANG people!

dont kill me!

1stly this guy show his foot to my seat on the bus back!

wtf right!

gross!

shmay and me clubbing at SS/Mois/ONE/ AND IDK where alse. =)

this picture shows her teeth is very clean and white!

ss had this cemistry lab shit going on

cho lo is hot! ;)

babe and me<3

IDK WHERE ARE THE REST!

MORE UPDATED SOON! =)

2010-05-16T23:15:00.003+08:00

Its the end of year1 sem1...

UNI PEOPLE

they say pictures speak a 1000words,

so Im gona let these pictures speak for all the stuff i forgot to update!

the messiest this sem

parvilion

chinese class

wendy's

work of husler and aaron

klcc

nat<3

the guys

2010-05-07T23:28:00.008+08:00

The Whacky Astro Trip..

most of the BC class and 2 sesat people from GD

we got to meet some DJ's

JJ and Ean gave us some really good advice on BC

and stuff which was cool of them

After Astro

chillies for cat's birthday

our lecture Mr.luqman

me bc peeps!

the babi molesting me as usual,

if you were looking at the astro cctv you would have caught her garbing my arse!

the everyday people

Eugenia is a mad chick

=) me peeps

i ♥ all the LOL pictures of us..

everyones high on happy pills.

even the bus is filled with Happy pill's

picture by Mr.luqman and yee ling