Sunday, July 01, 2007
another wonderfull way 2 start 1 july!! i so wana go back 2 mac!! im some1 who always has her gurde's up, never wanting 2 try anything, cz the fear of getting hurt,the one time i let it down, i got hurt..i should have seen it coming..real stupid..guess my frenz were right.i know itz 4 my own good but it hurtz so much,...the 1 thing i really mahalkita.. n the one thing i actualli listen 2**cz yall know i really don listen 2 yall cth:smk.n stuff... its gone...friends??i have 2 be. i don wana lose it 4ever..at least i still get 2 speak,maybe itz easy 4 ppl 2 4get everything tat gone through... but i cant... i mean it was awsome till now... n me malahkita 4 life..maybe after spm nothing will change,maybe frenz,i wont change.maybe i need time or smt.. last year i keep parying 4 some1 2be there 4 me insted of me being there 2 my frenz..n i got an angel..but y god give's jz 2 take..everytime use mahalkita itz definally not in a friend way.. we r awsome s frenz no doubt..but itz hard..cz of all the things tat gone through.. i feel so lost,... now sick.. been crying alot.. till got fever n flu.. maybe im emo... but ppl said vul 4ever... guess tat was jz a saying.. tat i was so foolish 2 belive... i mean there's like no diff now i feel la.. so wats the diffrence... y say frends? maybe does not want me mahalkita... itz 4 the best after all spm.. i keeping distance d.. tats wat i been trying 2 do..... like when study itz study... i don get it....i so need a huggi... god.. come huggi me.. i feel alone..n confused.. .. i might do smt stupid.. but like who cares???!i still feel itz smt i did..
