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Tuesday, September 30, 2008

i did what i had to for the so called flood and the rain stopped! so x flood!
=. =
so drove to pg wit div met up with phil and yeshua.. watching death race with them was fun!
div kept hiding her face behind the pop-corn... hahaha to ganas the show..... then we hit the beach!
after stopping at MacD for ice-cream... drizzel or not! we beach freaks! hehehe
went to my usual spot! and guess who we met!!
"bitch" which we now have a decent name!! POP-corn! and her friends!

oh ya i forgot to blog, last thursday went to the beach with irwin and patrick, and we met her!**read irwin or patrick's blog ler** phil cant keep his hands off her!! lmao!! yeshua busy eatting ice-cream.. haha
hehe div and her PoP-C0RN!..

**see the connection wit the dog's name**

i was bored! hehe
hehe some candid's hehe.. lmao last pic reminds me of the time phil was going on about his "sexy legs"!
lmao!! eewwww

pop-c0rn's footprints!
errrr.. some

cacat dog's footprints?

**phil no life! xp**

had fun!!

quote of the day "ikan belacan,where belacan was made from!"


ps: happy again!! love you and i miss u!! Daniel Chan Swee Tuck!!! =)

hehe oh yea.. someone close to me is finally dapating gf!! wo0ts!! hehe

happy 4 ya dude!

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everything goes up!!!from the dinning room to the hall..to even the kitchen!
and everything alse.. ends up at the middle of the stairs..like i said everything goes up! including them.. some forcefully!

and NO! we ain't rearranging the house!
raining all night+day+ desa damai awesome drainage system =

from the front to the back

my nebigours are not in.. so have to go over and do their house as well...

no matter what we have tried.. nothing works! water still comes in... so call gov suppose to help.. they said they did.. but nothing has change! much.. haiz

lastly! my babe!! sigh.. i have to drive it to the freaking main road to keep if from the water!
doubt i can go to penang! sobs!!..

~ps:chris! i found his halmet!! lmao~

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Monday, September 29, 2008

BM+boredom= INSANITY!

so what have i been up to in BM??
one word


that and i been spending time with me babies!! presenting lady baby!!

i dono why she's lost so much weight!!!
but still.. she is extremely hyper!! especially if there is food around!!

and this VERY LAZY,very FAT!!/hairy,very manja doggie..

is fluffy!!

she put on weight!! haha fluffy is blind in one eye**tats the white eye** and her teeth sticks out because when she was young she use to bite my brothers bike..

**which shan never forgives her and makes her pay for it every change he gets**

my family does not like fluffy much.. famous lines use by my fly" the dog tat need to have braces" or "its that a dog or a bear"


lady is more the spoilt one totally dimanja by my fly.. hehe.. but fluffy is me baby so i spoil her every chance i get.. hehe..hey itz not that often you get a dog you can squeeze!

my real live stuff toy!!!hehe

besides that, was bored and i found my old candle collection.. hehe

aromatherapy... xp

oh yea... im so happy for a some one close to me, who is in "love" and actually smiling!! haha and less bugging my soul... i dont know why... but im happy for him.. hehe...

happiness slowly creeping in again! xp

im missing someone! so the dam much!

sigh!! counting down the days..

**note 2 self get new hairband!!**

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Sunday, September 28, 2008

more than words
Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
Its not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldnt have to say that you love me
Cos Id already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldnt make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words

Now Ive tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close dont ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldnt have to say that you love me
Cos Id already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldnt make things new
Just by saying I love you
1month!! =)

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Wednesday, September 24, 2008

I’m back home.. to my room….. some how the walls don’t seem the same..
So much has changed…
its like the place I once called home, don’t seem like home..
I feel so hallow in this house, its like some how I hear the laughter’s echoing but I know its all is gone for real this time .
Its like the happiness has been drained out. Nothings the same.. every time I come back the less I recognize this walls,
the people never change.
I never understood why everyone said that this place actually smothers you slowly,
I know a lot of people that have moved away and when they come back they hate it here.
Its not really the place so much, more like the people, I mean those who actually moved away changed a lot, guess cause they see the world so to speak, and they moved forward in life.. but when the go back “home” its like going back to the past, nothing ever changes, the people are still around, still doing all those crappy mistakes, still never learn their lessons, still not moving forward in life still having that one track mind.
Will they ever learn?
Don’t get me wrong I love coming back home, seeing my friends, family and all..
But just something’s that use to hurt / pissed me off still haven’t change.

I know this person for my entire life, and still nothing ever changes that person breezes through life not caring, not taking responsibilities for his actions, not even trying to change.
Basically I hate coming home because of this one person, who affects the lives of all 5 people, and everyone around..
I know he knows how much he hurt them, I know he knows what he is doing is wrong.
Something so wrong.

But still he lives his life in denial making as it nothing is wrong, as if his innocent. I don’t hate him. I’m just sick of it, I’m sick of trying to stand up for him, I’m sick of watching people I care about so much get hurt, I’m sick of listening to other people telling me about him, I’m sick of watching him make as if nothing is wrong, I’m sick of his mistakes and how its affecting me and the rest, I’m sick of feeling so numb! Feelingless, I’m sick of it. If I’m at the point where its enough.
I cant imagine her.
I cant imagine her staying, going though this same shit over and over again. And still sticking around, just so the others ,won’t be sad or affected. im sick of you going through all this shit AGAIN… enough is enough.. time to move on.. yea, people at “home” don’t change…
but be different.

Make a difference this time.. time to take a stand..

enough is enough!


Sunday, September 21, 2008

Most the time u can’t tell how or what a person is thinking what they are feeling, if they are being sincere or if they are even telling the truth.
Sometimes u just hope that they are. sometimes u just wish, u could just understand or know what the hell the person is thinking or even felling just so you could do something about it.
Sometimes u get pissed off with a person for the way they act, but the thing is do u know why they act that way. Sometimes its all cause of sometime beneath the surface.. Some people look so normal on the surface, calm and steady but under the surface they are dying/rotting but no one knows. Sometimes even the people closest won’t know a thing… sometimes they push the people close to them, or even pissed them off. Maybe its just a sign of s0mething so wrong.
Sometimes you see it coming, you know something bad is going to happen, some sit and try to ignore and avoid it. Some go to extreme measures to let it not happen or keep it from happening so that people close to then don’t know a thing or get hurt. But the thing is, if something bad is meant to happen, it would just happen.
There is nothing you can do to stop it. If things are not meant to work out it just is.. Nothing you can do to fix it.. Especially if you keep trying to fix something that is so broken over so many years..
People have to choices simple, either change or don’t change.. you cant keep holding on something that wont work, and go along with life unhappy in the inside and put on a fake smile.. how long more will you go on with the fake smile? No matter how much you love the person, all you can do is be yourself, try your best and hope .which you have.
Stop suffering and trying to keep the hurt and pain in. Stop trying to make something that cant work, work.. You tried to long. Stop trying to protect the ones you think will get hurt, because you know they won’t get hurt. They are old enough to take care of them self, all they care is your happiness, they don’t hate anyone. Don’t worry about them hating that someone. Because they
don’t, they just want you happy. You need to move on or do something.
You can go through hardships alone….sometimes friends aren’t the best people to turn to..
Sometimes all you got is your family and love ones…

You got me….


Saturday, September 20, 2008

The beautiful is in nature, and it is encountered in the most diverse forms of the reality.
Once it is found, it belong to art, or, rather, to the artist who discovers it.

**Gustave Courbert**

Although art changes from millennium to millennium, from day to day, uniting all art is the persistent quest for beauty or for truth or for self-expression.
Art is a powerful tool, and the artist knows this well.
It can be used to replicate the eye in the finest detail, tricking the eye into perceiving truth in imitation.

Artist uses art to reach the outward to describe truths about humanity and reach the inward to describe truths about themselves.

ARTS PAPER TMR.. as u can see i going insane with the lecture slides..xp...
but to me...
beauty is in the eye of the beholder la! And art is an expression on how u feel or like a tool to release ur emotions/ output...it show's how u feel without the words, or it shows but it dont show's how u feel kinda like keeps u guessing....
thats just my view...
updates:had fun with sayang 2day!tmr date.. wakaka
Thursday, September 18, 2008

kuala lumpur vs penang!
2 me la....
everything is so nearby...
food!! the bom!!!
shopping also dam cheap!
everything cheap!
**except for rides on the beach**
people! hot!! and friendly
many lepak places
roads also easy cant get lost wan..
dam hot!
jam on the bridge!!
the people's mulut..
laid back
dapat new stuff 1st..
public transportation better..
banyak universities...
some people dam the cun!
crime rate!!
some the people dam stuck up!
nothing is near
dam mahal!!!!
**always broke!**
food sucks and also mahal...
besides malls or clubs or mamaks.. x where 2 chill!
every lil thing need $$$$
**x $$ x go out*
^^ pg rm10 boleh d!^^
people give dam the weird stares!
people get see people in bikini!!
dam complicated roads!

but what make's penang the best.....
free WiFi.....
see star...
so unfair.... I'm stuck here!!! sobs!!


About the last post which i deleted.. i was just angery... and frustrated.. so yea..

after blogging i called her..

then she was like" ey wan food? "
me: nope,ill unlock the door u when u come back....
**short pause**
me:about jz nw.... sorry...
she:yea im sorry 2..
she:er ok bye!
lol.... we is weird people..... but she is still my close friend! hehe we may piss each other off,but at the end of the day.... ita all gud..... =)

accounts!! i give up! sobs!!

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Tuesday, September 16, 2008

~WTF ~
updates: public speaking over!woots! i got accounts n arts left! , i had fun with sayang! biasa ler. hehe.... and hotmana may let me move in with Malia n gang!! woots!!kinda missing out on MacD sessions..**which ain't a big deal since even if i was there or not it wouldn't have a difference..... feel so the sesat when I'm there, sigh!**,oh i owe Henry macd! and kalaii and ah Ming hooked up..!
**happy 4 em!**
im addicted to this song!!

u make me trust.. =)

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Friday, September 12, 2008

Had an awesome,awsome time with sayang on Thursday!! =)

was fun studying! xp
then i went to MacD AGAIN...
we have been here like everyday wei..
im getting sick of MacD..
we the MacD FREAKS!! xp

the gang all got a cake for kalaii her Bday!

n the gift?
be safe,play safe
**sasi posing with it**

they said i was not supporting n stuff..
sorry ler.... got alot on my mind..
plus cs ler!....geram sia!!
but we had emo moments!! haha WE LOVE U KALAII!! xp
study study study..
In the end CS was ok ni ler.. i think pass la.. but i don't think A or anything..
after the CS paper went to T-club with shan...had dinner then came to Mel's place...

lepak with mommy and Melissa today,we also visited Mel's**my cous** baby, lil Megan...
Megan just went through few major operations... she was born with some problems,a has alot of excess fluid in her head/eyes.... the doc inserted some tubes in her skull and behind an empty eye soket**cz she was born without an eyeball also** to drain the fluids... it's so sad to see her suffering.no baby should ever be like that... she is not even a year old.. despite the tubes and growths she still is SO pretty... like a Lil angel.....anyways she is doing much better now.. going home soon!

went shopping.. just now..with hotmama and mel hehehe
was fun... hehe just crapping and chilling and gossiping! xp
now back to studying!!

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