Sunday, September 02, 2007
2 have a relationship at my age.. is… kinda dumb.. thinking about it.. I mean… like, it so not gona last watz the point of being in a relation when itz sure aint gona work out.n in the end itz either u or him/her tat is heart broken, It does smt effect u mentally n emotionly. Im so over it… like they say there r other fishes in the sea. I jz take it like one of those lessons in life. we all have 2 face.. nobody is ever perfect.. ppl make mistakes… I learn a lot of things from it, good n bad. I remember the good n learn not 2 let the bad repeat itself. sheena once told me.. don go finding 4 other guys… cz god know who is right.. n will lead tat person2 u… tat is so true.. J im happy wit things now.. I moved on.. I don dwell on it.. I mean ppl my age itz dam hard being in a relationship when there r like a dozen hot ppl around..lol.. itz better not 2 limit urself.. hehe..im happy how things turned out.. theres x bad blood.. J my mom thinks im x over it.. hahaha.. but I’m… now im jz gona put everything aside, n try my very best 4 spm.. I can do it.. by the grace of god… life is really full of bumps.. after 1 theres another n another.. in a way it makes us stronger.. cutting urself , smoking, drinking, having many many bf, sleeping around, bullshiting stories tat u got layed, n taking drugs.. it don help at all.. jz makes things worse, n in the end ur so called frenz tat influence u 2 do it.. they all leave u.. n only ur real frenz stick by u.. but.. when ur 2into it.. u push em away n in the end.. ur all alone.. n ur life would totally suck.. now I may face a lot of tough stuff 4 not joining em n all but in the end itz all worth it.. I did things in the past im not proud of.. but im human k! n I make mistakes.. I use 2 love playing wit “fire” till I got burn.. my life aint the same.. itz a good thing though at least I can change now.. life can be great if u put all the bad behind n move forward. Guys my age have told me not 2 trust guys*they said speaking from experience** they said tat all guys suck. They know the wrong n hurt other ppl.. u know.. the ppl they hurt will heal.. but I think those who hurt em don’t.. they jz go cold.. n get messed up.. “resolve to be thyself, and know that he who fins himself loses his misery”_chicken soup..life is so much clearer when the rain stops.. J n u think things through..
