mostly with myself..

and my studying is so not going as plan! argh!!!!
I feel like shouting! Screaming!! Most of all, I wish I was at the beach!

Another output. talking to people, that mean a lot to me.... but then again. I cant keep bugging their soul or go to the beach, cause PJ ain't near any beaches… sigh
I'm trying my best.. but my best don’t seem good enough!

Its like I force myself to study! I'm like kicking myself to study!

But its like I'm reading but nothings is sticking! Plus when it actually is, and I feel I'm actually starting to focus and concentrate, pork on’s the TV! Haiz…

I don’t mind the sound.. but the thing is she put’s it on so loud.. plus its so near my room! No matter where I go its still loud.. I tried the kitchen.. but even there its noisy.. plus other housemate want to go there to cook and stuff…

I never been so frustrated as I'm now..

I don’t know why but ever since I came to uni I been some how different, not the same jazz who wouldn't bother about my grades and stuff…

maybe its because I now know how hard my mom worked to get me where I m now..

or maybe its mostly the responsibility that my future is in my own hands now….

Sigh….
I know hot mama always says just do your best, that’s all I want from you..

but then…

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