Not weird but just uniquely different

Thursday, September 16, 2010

I ♥ Megan!

we have similar taste ;p

-need a cam-

-need to find a new crib!-

-need to start being more independent-

-need to start working-

-need to start painting again-

-need my BB to be fixed asap!-

-need to go shopping-

-needs a holiday! badly..

~~- ~~dating again?~~~~

-learn to play my bass!-

-need to work on myself-

-need to go botak-

-need to pierce again-

-NEEDS TO FIND OUT WHAT IMMA WEAR FOR MY

BROTHER'S WEDDING-

happening NEXT WEEK! and I cant help with anything cause I have exams.

And I might be dateless? =(

papers still going on and all I want to do is PAINT!

so badly!

so many distraction.. sigh...

This week everyone is being strong and staking a stand...

Its time I should too,

watching them gives me strength,

Thank you, you for being there ;)

I found out something about myself,

according to people, IM a FLIRT,

But people close to me know that Im like that 24/7

According to JonJon IM a Guy,

seriously, I have no clue

fml.

Labels: lalala

Friday, September 10, 2010

hate the person I have become,

Losing control..

I need to get a grip.

**smack self**

Thursday, September 09, 2010

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that’s alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that’s alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

I can’t tell you what it really is

I can only tell you what it feels like

And right now there’s a steel knife

In my windpipe

I can’t breathe

But I still fight

While I can fight

As long as the wrong feels right

It’s like I’m in flight

High of a love

Drunk from the hate

It’s like I’m huffing paint

And I love it the more that I suffer

I suffocate

And right before im about to drown

She resuscitates me

She fucking hates me

And I love it

Wait

Where you going

I’m leaving you

No you ain’t

Come back

We’re running right back

Here we go again

It’s so insane

Cause when it’s going good

It’s going great

I’m Superman

With the wind in his bag

She’s Lois Lane

But when it’s bad

It’s awful

I feel so ashamed

I snap

Who’s that dude

I don’t even know his name

I laid hands on her

I’ll never stoop so low again

I guess I don’t know my own strength

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that’s alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that’s alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much

You can barely breathe

When you’re with them

You meet

And neither one of you

Even know what hit ‘em

Got that warm fuzzy feeling

Yeah them chills

Used to get ‘em

Now you’re getting fucking sick

Of looking at ‘em

You swore you’ve never hit ‘em

Never do nothing to hurt ‘em

Now you’re in each other’s face

Spewing venom

And these words

When you spit ‘em

You push

Pull each other’s hair

Scratch, claw, bit ‘em

Throw ‘em down

Pin ‘em

So lost in the moments

When you’re in ‘em

It’s the rage that took over

It controls you both

So they say it’s best

To go your separate ways

Guess that they don’t know ya

Cause today

That was yesterday

Yesterday is over

It’s a different day

Sound like broken records

Playin’ over

But you promised her

Next time you’ll show restraint

You don’t get another chance

Life is no Nintendo game

But you lied again

Now you get to watch her leave

Out the window

Guess that’s why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that’s alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that’s alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things

Did things

That we didn’t mean

And we fall back

Into the same patterns

Same routine

But your temper’s just as bad

As mine is

You’re the same as me

But when it comes to love

You’re just as blinded

Baby please come back

It wasn’t you

Baby it was me

Maybe our relationship

Isn’t as crazy as it seems

Maybe that’s what happens

When a tornado meets a volcano

All I know is

I love you too much

To walk away though

Come inside

Pick up your bags off the sidewalk

Don’t you hear sincerity

In my voice when I talk

Told you this is my fault

Look me in the eyeball

Next time I’m pissed

I’ll aim my fist

At the dry wall

Next time

There will be no next time

I apologize

Even though I know it’s lies

I’m tired of the games

I just want her back

I know I’m a liar

If she ever tries to fucking leave again

I’ma tie her to the bed

And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that’s alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that’s alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

Labels: songs

This is for you..

I just need everyone to stop telling me what to do,

I know what I need to do,

Just leave me alone..

Labels: emotions

I fucked up so much this past weeks..

I dono wtf Im doing..

when I finally realize it might be too late..

Doing shit I normally wouldn't do,

I feel the guilt,

I hate the feeling,

LOST..

everything just doesn't seem right,

Losing my mind...

It took losing a friend to realize how short and precious life is,

That every word you say might be your last,

Every mistake you make cant be undone,

Every plans made unfulfilled,

life is like a ripple,

one drop can change everything,

We changed plans, I did it so I could see him,

Support him,but it ended up with a life lost,

Yea its not my fault but I cant help wonder what IF..

Random stuff keeps playing in my head,

stupid fights,

you may think Im too young,

but I know whats right,

I know how its suppose to feel,

My biggest regrets,

I cant change time,

I can only hope....

hope times picks me...

If only you could make someone do something,

but you cant,

everyone around going to the same thing,

everyone uses someone to forget someonealse

but im not gonna do that...

time is the best healer...

Thank you for being there and being understanding....

Reality just hit me HARD.

Labels: emotions